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My blog will be a little journey back to my sweet aroma -Lilya

I know you don’t care about how i feel but i just want to say…

I’m truly disappointed after reading it. Don’t question me how i saw it when it has already been deleted.

“I'm not that evil/mean to curse you. I'll bless you like how I always do silently..”

Why did you call yourself mean when no one is even thinking about it? Are you feeling guilty?

 

“I'll bless you like how I always do silently.” – NO! STOP! I don’t need your blessing! If you’ve been doing it silently, STOP! i SERIOUSLY cannot stand it when a person is hating me or having STRONG jealousy of me to be blessing me and saying “all the Best.” to me. STOP! I DON’T NEED THAT! AND I DON’T WANT TO BE BLESSED BY SOMEONE WHO IS JEALOUSING Over ME OR HATING ME. YOU HEAR ME?!

 

“By the time you saw this, you might be changing your mindset.” –YES! WHEN I SAW THIS, I SERIOUSLY CHANGED MY MIND! I BELIEVE YOU’LL BE GLAD AND HAPPY THAT… I’ve decided NOT to patch this friendship with you! I DON’T WANT TO HAVE A BEST FRIEND WHO IS SO FULL OF PRIDE!(the tone of post was full of pride by you)_ SERIOUSLY, I DON’T!

AND I DON’T REMEBER HAVING A BEST FRIEND WHOSE HEART IS SO FULL OF PRIDE! SORRY, I DON’T REMEMBER YOU!

 

“I chose to give up just like this.
Surprisingly, It isn't me!”  -You know what? I think i should help you to rephrase your sentence to…. Watch me:

“I chose to give up just like this.
Surprisingly, It WASN’T JUST me!”  -Perhaps, you typed it wrongly i guessed? I was watching television that night, so i didn’t know what exactly happened. When i finished watching television, i got a call FROM YOUR BOYFRIEND scolding me like @&^%#*(@&()*$)@&*!!! AFTER he finished scolding me, i went to facebook and i realised you blocked me. You know what? Blocking isn’t giving up BUT blocking someone is a FORM OF ACTING TOWARDS “I Give up”

YOU HAVE THE CHEEK TO SAY “It isn't me!”  WHEN I RE-ADDED YOU 2-3TIMES AND GOT REJECTED BY YOU?! DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TYPING?!

 

“I ain't like this before. But something changes so quickly..
So quickly until i can even imagine.” –NICE! So, you’ve always been imagining all this while and you imagine so much that you put it to act? Kudos to you!

I’ll have some Grace on you. Perhaps you were trying to say… “…can’t even imagine.” I can tell you what changes you… It’s call “Pride.”

 

“I'm so sorry about that. I should have persevered, but nope.” –Wait a minute… persevere? Even if this wasn’t going to end, do you know how to? P.E.R.S.E.V.E.R.E? I only know that you’re good at boot licking although i told you many times not to do that. Can you PLEASE save yourself some dignity?

 

“I covered too much in front of you. I guess, I'm really evil inside?” –SERIOUSLY… STOP CALLING YOURSELF EVIL! OR DO YOU ALWAYS WANTED TO BE MEAN AND EVIL!!!!?? EVEN IF YOU ARE FEELING GUILTY OVER IT, CALLING YOURSELF EVIL IS NEVER THE BEST WAYY OF GETTING RID OF YOUR GUILTINESS!

 

 

 

YES! I’M MAD OVER YOU! SERIOUSLY MAD! BUT DO YOU CARE? PERHAPS, YOU DON’T!

AND SERIOUSLY… PEOPLE WHOM REALLY DON’T KNOW WHAT THE HELLLLLLLLLLLL HAPPENED BETTER SHUTUP! BECAUSE I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED, SO YOU THINK YOU"’LL KNOW?!

 

I QUIT! I’m NEVER A PLAYER IN SUCH A CRAPPY LIFELESS JOKE! IF YOU REALLY BOTHER ABOUT WHOSE WINNING AND LOSING, I LOSE, and YOU WON! CONGRATS!

IF YOU’RE FEELING VERYYY HAPPY AFTER READING THIS POST BECAUSE YOU WON, YOU know WHAT? YOU NEED TO SAVE SOME HUMANITY FOR YOURSELF TO SURVIVE IN THIS BROKEN WORLD~

 

MY LAST WORD FOR YOU! I DON’T KNOW WHO THE HELLLLLLLLLL ARE YOU!!!! WHAT CHANGES YOU, PROBABLY WAS PRIDE? I DON’T KNOW.

ANDDDD… I DON’T WAN’T YOU! I WANT BACK MY FRIEND, I WANT BACK MY BELOVER FRIEND WHOM SHE USE TO CALL ME “NingZi”, “Ningning.” and she even tried to call me, “Ning Xuan!”

WHO THE HECK ARE YOU TO TELL ME THAT IT WASN’T YOU WHEN I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHO THE HELLL ARE YOU! YOU KNOW WHAT? IT’S NOT FOR YOU TO DECIDE! I’ll WAIT FOR HER TO BE BACK PATIENTLY!

YOU KNOW WHAT? I DON’T NEED YOU! MY SIS WILL NEVER POST ANYTHING ABOUT ME HAVING HALF OF HER POST SOUNDED SO FULL OF PRIDE! THANK YOU!

Yar...

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My Art Inspired Blog: http://lilyas-inspired.tumblr.com   *NOTE* some pictures in my inspired art blog do contain nudity.  It’s Nudity NOT pornographic nor Soft pornographic!!!! =.=

find me at lilyalzn. I’ll not take a step into lzn-zini anymore. I’ll be there, there, at lilyalzn.

I hate it here. i don’t like it here. As much as i wanna explain myself, i don’t think i’ve given a chance… i know you wanna hear me no more.

i know you wanna me to be out of your side. Don’t worry, you’ll see me no more until one fine day you decided to change your mind.

I don want to explain for myself. I give up. I’m not taking any steps towards you anymore… It’s like an ant trying to swim across the ocean.

If you got to use that same phrase to me again, “You, know. You know it.” i’ll tell you this time round that, i don’t know anything. I’m not God. I don’t know anything.

I’m very tired. Very. Stop getting me involve into your problem. Like seriously…

Stop your damn judgment of me in your damn freaked up mind.

I hope you’ll hold back your judgment and spare some thoughts before you give your crudest and most meanest judgment of me.

If you really have to think badly of me, well, i have no control. You’re free to do whatever you want.

Bye… lzn-zining.

Dear readers, search lilyalzn and you’ll find it… probably?

Dear you, you can find me, search for me, look for me. I’m not expecting but just wanna let you know tt getting contact with me in future isn’t easy like how it use to be anymore.

 

bye lzn-zining

Finally… i’m done with my Inspiring Art Blog… Hoooorayyyy!

It is basically an Art Blog. As long as it related to Art, it inspired me, i love it, it’ll share it at my Inspired Art Blog.

 http://lilyas-inspired.tumblr.com/

***NOTE: My Art Inspired Blog DO contain NUDITY.***

If You LOVE Art YET Dislike/ Hate to see NUDITY(or related kind of) Art, You are kindly advice NOT to go and check it out. If you do, DON’T Complain!

Months after i met you, i was overjoyed, excited and happy as a little girl, bragging about how i have met a good friend.afgh

Years later, we became good friends. We got closer than ever. We are always having great time with each other. Our friendship was visible that even a stranger knows we are best friend.

We got close, so close that as though the wall among us was broken. Without a word that’s being said, i know your movement, you know mine. That was how close we were. Its like as though our mind are glued together.

We always talk how we could make it happen, having it a forever one.
Not until you’ve tie yourself with someone else.
Even though our friendship have been neglected, i don’t mind. Even though you are attached, it’s not a matter to me.

But, i guess our friendship are so fragile that it got destroyed over lust for love.
I didn’t blame you, i didn’t blame anyone.
I see this broken one… as… a… test. Although it hurts u but i accepted it.

You built a wall against my words. That’s when i realise you’re blinded by love.

I hope you’ll read this and remember this.

I’m not walking away from you but i hope you’ll remember me, my words and my face as a friend. I promised that i’ll be there for you if you need me. i’ll keep my word.

Our hearts are always close though we are far away from one another.

Yes, it’s for you only. Please remember this.

Love,

Zining. .