I've decided.

i look up the sky, wondering why.
clouds were moving so gently
when i see the clouds turn dark,
i don't know why.
i ask myself, who am i.
i bow down my head and ask myself why.
Why can't i live in my past.
Why can't i live for my Future?
Why can't i live for something which is ahead of me?
Why can't i?
Why can't i?
And i start questioning...
God am i useless?
God did i neglect you.
God you know me the best,
and yet you remain faithful staying close to me.
And again, i'm lost, i'm not living in my past because
i don't deserve it. I'm not really living for my future,
as i failed many time on holding on to my future.
Should i let go and dream again? Or should i hold on to it tight?
i don't know... i feel lousy.
i'll lift up all my burden to you...

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Today's Rachel's Birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL!
and rachel, Renee and i together we went for movie today.
Watched ' Get Smart ' OMgoodness, it's super funny, it's nice. After movie, we went home.
hoping that there'll be a private jet waiting to fetch us home. How Sweet~ LOL!
i saw dominic(daddy), jin sheng and Xinyu when i was on my way home. I was shock that Jin Sheng stead with Xinyu. Because i never know that. Don't get me wrong. i've no comments about it...

and right now i'm using this stylo* Computer of mine right now.


things which are ment to be mine, are mine forever.
i don't touch Things which don't belongs to me.
i have to get my vision.

it's time for Zining to rise in every area of her life.


Goodnight readers!