She's gonna start over again until she gets herself right.
It's trial and error. She's gonna do it no matter it's the right or wrong.
It would be great if she gets it right. If she gets it wrong, she'll have to learn from her mistake.
She's taking the long route than the short path. Zining strongly believe that there's no short cut in life unless, you really do have a poison mind. Zining is taking the basic step by step into life again. She's going to put down all the matters she has encounter in life.
She's going to learn from the things she've encounter.
She's going to correct all her mistake that she've made in life.
She's going to let go all the physical hurts, emotion hurts, spiritual hurts and the rational hurts she have in life.
She's going to erase all those unpleasant, unwanted, hurtful and all those memories which will makes her tired.
She's going to let it go. Especially the unwanted ones.
Yes, Mike Connel is right. If you bury the hurts deep in your heart without expressing it out or sharing with the correct person, you'll end up repeating the hurts. How does the hurts take place all over again? You want to know how? Alright i'll tell you how, it's quite a scary one.
Instead of you being hurt all over again, you'll be the one who's going to hurt someone else(repeating the hurts on the past) base on what have happened to you before.
Fear... My Fears..
I'm not going to repeat the history.
I'm not going to be close to the people who'll poison my mind.
I'm not going to mix with the people who'll influence me and destroy my Hopes/Dreams/Future/Life.
I'm not going to poison my mind ever agian.
I'm not going to be hurtful to others.
No more, no more...
*****************
Went to Expo for Mike Connells preaching today. Wow, after his word of God, he ask to pray for the people who are not save. Suddenly, half way thru the prayer, i heard a man's voice shouting. it's so loud that almost everyone in the church was curious of who's is shouting. Tho the man's voice sounds scary, i was able to pay attention to the presence of God. Hahahas...
Is there any deliverance this year? i hope i can attend it. Yay~
After church, went to meet friends at bugis and had macDonald's together and then we walk to marina square for pool. it'd enjoy myself today. But as i headed home, i met 3 ah bengs. i was seated down. 2 of the ah bengs were standing infront of me, and another 1 was just right... should i say next to me or beside me? they were all staring at me!!! And i heard the 1 standing beside me whispering to the other 2 which is infront of me, " ....wait until she look at... then we... ..."
i was so so scare! It freak me out! Nothing like this have happen to me not even once in my life before. But, i was fortunate that Kendrick and AiWei was with me. I would have cry if i was alone. What happen next? Actually half way thru my journey home, i decided to go jp for window shopping(before the 3 bengs board the train) but after knowing how scary those 3 guys were, i wanted to go home. I am smart enough to know that they'' alight at Jurong East. ! of the guy even say good bye to me before leaving the train, okaye, that's "very" nice of him. So i remained
in the train and ... ... ... it's a llonnnnnnngg llonnnnggg story.
And now i back to my ~home SWEEEETT home.
Ahh... i feel comfortable seating at my comfy soft cushion chair.
Don't admire me because of my overall physical body. But, look into my heart deeper.
Friends, hear me ask i speak. Hear me as i sigh. Give me a pat on my shoulder when i cry.
You may not know me well, i may not know you well. but, i'm fortunate that you're here standing along with me.
Sharing it.
Psalms 37:7
"Be still and rest in the Lord; wait for Him and patiently lean yourself upon Him; ..."
It's trial and error. She's gonna do it no matter it's the right or wrong.
It would be great if she gets it right. If she gets it wrong, she'll have to learn from her mistake.
She's taking the long route than the short path. Zining strongly believe that there's no short cut in life unless, you really do have a poison mind. Zining is taking the basic step by step into life again. She's going to put down all the matters she has encounter in life.
She's going to learn from the things she've encounter.
She's going to correct all her mistake that she've made in life.
She's going to let go all the physical hurts, emotion hurts, spiritual hurts and the rational hurts she have in life.
She's going to erase all those unpleasant, unwanted, hurtful and all those memories which will makes her tired.
She's going to let it go. Especially the unwanted ones.
Yes, Mike Connel is right. If you bury the hurts deep in your heart without expressing it out or sharing with the correct person, you'll end up repeating the hurts. How does the hurts take place all over again? You want to know how? Alright i'll tell you how, it's quite a scary one.
Instead of you being hurt all over again, you'll be the one who's going to hurt someone else(repeating the hurts on the past) base on what have happened to you before.
Fear... My Fears..
I'm not going to repeat the history.
I'm not going to be close to the people who'll poison my mind.
I'm not going to mix with the people who'll influence me and destroy my Hopes/Dreams/Future/Life.
I'm not going to poison my mind ever agian.
I'm not going to be hurtful to others.
No more, no more...
*****************
Went to Expo for Mike Connells preaching today. Wow, after his word of God, he ask to pray for the people who are not save. Suddenly, half way thru the prayer, i heard a man's voice shouting. it's so loud that almost everyone in the church was curious of who's is shouting. Tho the man's voice sounds scary, i was able to pay attention to the presence of God. Hahahas...
Is there any deliverance this year? i hope i can attend it. Yay~
After church, went to meet friends at bugis and had macDonald's together and then we walk to marina square for pool. it'd enjoy myself today. But as i headed home, i met 3 ah bengs. i was seated down. 2 of the ah bengs were standing infront of me, and another 1 was just right... should i say next to me or beside me? they were all staring at me!!! And i heard the 1 standing beside me whispering to the other 2 which is infront of me, " ....wait until she look at... then we... ..."
i was so so scare! It freak me out! Nothing like this have happen to me not even once in my life before. But, i was fortunate that Kendrick and AiWei was with me. I would have cry if i was alone. What happen next? Actually half way thru my journey home, i decided to go jp for window shopping(before the 3 bengs board the train) but after knowing how scary those 3 guys were, i wanted to go home. I am smart enough to know that they'' alight at Jurong East. ! of the guy even say good bye to me before leaving the train, okaye, that's "very" nice of him. So i remained
in the train and ... ... ... it's a llonnnnnnngg llonnnnggg story.
And now i back to my ~home SWEEEETT home.
Ahh... i feel comfortable seating at my comfy soft cushion chair.
Don't admire me because of my overall physical body. But, look into my heart deeper.
Friends, hear me ask i speak. Hear me as i sigh. Give me a pat on my shoulder when i cry.
You may not know me well, i may not know you well. but, i'm fortunate that you're here standing along with me.
Sharing it.
Psalms 37:7
"Be still and rest in the Lord; wait for Him and patiently lean yourself upon Him; ..."
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