Struggles.

Just came back from lot1 with dad. Felt like crying. Because i quarrel with him. Of course i didn't meant to quarrel with him. But, my dad was like being a recorder? It's actually a small little thing. For not paying the fine of the books. And he's angry with me. My dad starts saying "i told you to take your POSB card right... ... ... Why didn't u pay your fine after topping up your ez-link card before you come back and find me? Why you never.... ...???? ...?? Why you... ...? Why are you so stupid?? Why do i have such a stupid daughter like you???" And my dad just kept on repeating it over and over again. It's not 2-3 times. It's like i'm gonna be crazy... I hate my parent for calling me stupid, as it decrease my self-esteem little by little each and everytime my parents call me that. I got to pull it throught with tears and encouragement. Some times it really makes me feel like i'm a burden to my family. Well, yes i do love my dad. But... you guys out there must be always think that i'm fortunate.
Yes, i'm fortunate.
I'm fortunate to have God.
I'm fortunate to have a Family.
I'm fortunate to have a proper figure.
I'm fortunate to be able to see, smell, sense, taste.
I'm fortunate to have a brain for me to think wisely.
I'm fortunate to have many trustworthy friends &
friends whom i can depend on in life.
I'm fortunate to be able to study.
I'm fortunate that i'm normal.
I'm fortunate that i accept who i am myself.
I'm fortunate to have multi-talent.
I'm fortunate to have wonderful visions and dreams.
I'm fortunate that i'm able to carry the hope in me.
I'm fortunate to be able to accept all my surroundings.
I'm fortunate to be blessed.
I know i'm fortunate.
Dad scolded me stupid for keeping those 2 rabbits.
Well dad said that if i don't keep those 2 rabbits, by now, dad could have bought me Nokia N82.
And i was like "You say you can buy N82 for me but that doesn't mean you will buy it for me right? Well, time matters. You'll still gonna buy me a N-series phone sooner or later one. It's just the matter of time."
Sounds rude right? But i tried to talk to my dad as polite as i can. As i was enduring my anger at that point of time. Well, i may look as if i don't quarrel not even once in my life. I may look as if i've not been disappointed in my life. But, Humans got to know this. We are all living in this Broken World. Not all people understand you well. No body is perfect in this world. Things may just happen to any one of us in this world. There're always ups and downs in life.


Well, my blog is the best thing to release my anger and my disappointment afterall.

Goodnight readers.