Envy? Jealous? Or maybe, Admire?

In life, i'm sure that many unhappy things happen to us, Yes, ourselves. I have also learn that no matter how good a family's/house environment is to a child, still, that child will still struggle in some area in their life. I'm a girl who use to admire, envy and jealous about how great my surrounding's life are compared to mine(My apologies for sounding abit broken eng here). There's one thing i always forget. I tend to forget the complains/pressure/stress which they have shared with me in, as i'm always forcusing on how great their parents treated them and all.
I use to be a girl who envy spoilt brat. Do you guys know what "spoilt brat" means? Check the dictionary if some of you don't understand the meaning of it. Most of the time, Spoilt Brats are pampered by thier parents, they get what they want in life, luxury lifestyle + habit, and 1 last thing is... they always hide behind their parents back when things happen(this is the extreme state of a super spoilt brat). You know why i envy, admire or even jealous of them? Because, when i was much more younger, i always wanted things which i like and love. I even think of living in a realistic material world of my own. <-- Yes, i know i sounded very selfish for thinking for my ownself before others, or maybe, i'll just forget about my surroundings...
Hahahas... this was the kind of little girl i am when i was much more younger...
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Regarding ytd's post, yeah, i won't be doing a vow but to maintain and be myself will do... Thanks Weijian :D as i was feeling a little uncomfortable for saying that i'll make a vow to it... Hahahahas... This is so silly of me...
Did not really enjoy school today, it's so boring. But thk God, Rachel and Renee was there to save my day... Hehhehheh... We talked non stop. Actually, i really enjoy and loves talking to Rachel though she's a girl with a serious attitude(abit serious only), still i really like talking to her... Hah! Whenever i said something which didn't really sound pleasant to her, she'll scold... :D No, she's not scary, but strict towards me(i guess)? Hahahahas...
Loves my friends... Happy Happy Happy... I'm going Facial later, thank you ZIYING!!!

Readers got to enjoy your day today! :D
Byeeeee....