Zining Must be back!!!

I know, i'm not acting normally like how i use to be... Give me a little bit more time... and Zining will be back like how she use to be.

Just realise that i was actually under "Chronic Fatigue" from last year till now. Sigh... Don't ask me why... Because it's something which involves money and though i've solve 50% of my problems, but still, it's still abit hard for me... Yes, some of you might know and understand what i'm going thru. I Thank You guys for giving me time to really think and to really realise and own up my problems... Tho, i took 4-5months to tell my parents about it... Woah...! I really wanna congratz myself for having the courage to step out of my comfort zone and to really tell my parents about it... Seriously, i've been struggling with fear back then... Fearing that Dad might find out. Fearing that mom would beat me up. Fearing that i won't be able to meet my body needs... and alot of things especially God's love and the people around me, i really forgot them all! After finding a suitable day and time to tell my parents, i feel so.... peaceful... and HAPPY of course... Hahahahas... But still, i'm still thinking of how to solve everything MYSELF wih the strength of God... Ever since i fell into the trap of fear, i really forgotten about lots of things even things which are very important...!!! Didn't really improve my studies(1 of the reason why i failed my exams 2008) I was in fear and didn't sleep well at night, doesn't want to sleep, didn't really want to eat(not fasting) and when i eat, i eat super lots and lots of food, tired, sleep and nev sleep shows me NO difference......... pardon me alright...?
My apologies... Forgive me, especially my friends... Give me just abit more time...

P/s and now, i know the enjoyment and "peace" of getting into slepp again!
p/p/s and i know what 'energize after sleep' means!

Oh Gooooooody!!!!!!!
good nights my readerss!
WIth loves,
Ning.