My studies.

I admit tt i only spent 2-3hours to study for my geography which is seriously NOT ENOUGH, that's y i failed super badly for my paper... in fact all my papers. And my Geog teacher actually wants to find out what really happen and wanted to know the reason/s for failing our paper; rough paper was given out for us to state our reason/s or comments. I seriously wanted to be honest with myself and truthfull to my teacher and i wrote something like this to my teacher:

I failed my paper is beacause i didn't really study for my paper. I find studying tiring and i'm unwilling to do so. Even if i were to study, i'll still fail my paper. Because my interest isn't there anymore. I find it hard to gain back my interest in studying. In fact, if i were to study(really study) putting in my focus, i can really do well for it. 

Immediately after i gave the paper to my teacher, in less than 1 minute, my teacher came up to me and told me something, which i find it really meaningful compared to what EVERYONE tells me...  After geography lesson, i had a talk with XXXX during recess and she said something which really really encourage me to study. SOmehow, my interest in studying gain back a little by little...

Well, when people encourage me to study, tell tell me the importance of studying and how my future will be affected by it. Yes, i know, i thank you guys for such an encouraging words, but the truth is... this is not what i wanna hear. I'm sorry people but i really want to be truthful with you guys that, this is REALLY NOT what i wanna hear nor listen. Because i already know it all... I'm always pretending and saying that i'll study each after each and every talk with anyone of you out there, but never did i keep my words, i wasn't being inspired nor impacted by any of the talk... And i just don wanna study, unwilling to do so. Even when i study, i just read it thru and forget whatever things i've revise within a minute! Yes, laziness was one of the mannnny reasonsss why i refuse to study. Anyway, i really wanna thank my teacher and XXXX for the talk...  i'm a little worried for this friday's teachers and parents meeting.

I always feel very guilty when i'm not being truthfull or keeping troubles/problems to myself.

i'll tell u guys my job pay... it's actually $14/hour. u want the job? let me know, i'll pass u my boss number. But, i might not be working. Maybe i might go for the $5/hour ones. Wanna know the reaSons? Ask me, i might let you know my reasons... 

Anyway, i won't blog that often. yea!Signing off!

Love,

Zining :D