A fool, a FOOL, & i am such A FOOL!

i felt that i was being stupid today! Real dumb! I know that u guys out there would Rarely see me using hurtful words to pour on myself; i love my soul and spirit so much so that i didn't want to hurt it. It's different today. I can't stop myself from hurting and pouring nasty words on myself. I really felt being stupid to try to solve other people's problems... Usually people would say, "Wow, that's nice of u zining." but i think that now, phrases like, "Dumb! YOU're being such a Fool!..."

i hear God's voice and i hear the Satan's voice.

i heard God saying, "DOn't worry, it's okaye. You'll be fine if u learn from it." *Smile*

i heard Satan's voice pondering on me saying, "You lousy friend! Shame on you! For coming up with such an lousy, lame, idoitic and stupid idea! You really think you can help them?! You're too dumb for that."

Seriously, i was actually kind of affected by the situation. It was solved. Then i,  myself created another mess for her to clean it up. DUMB DUMB DUMMMMMMMMMBBBBBBBB!!!!!!!!

i can't get over it. Seriously, i can't. i even wanted to go up to her place to apologise but was rejected bec she wanna go out. OUCH! Felt really really bad..... Though she said it's okaye...

Zining is such a dumb lady!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dumb in solving that issue!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

This is the dumbest solution that i've came up with in my WHOLE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously i can't get over it, tho it ended for like... 4-5hours ago. I'm DUMB!!! 

I'm SOrry REneeeeeeee.... Really really sorry..... i don't know this is the how many times i've apologies to u, but i'm really sorry.... Forgive me please... Have mercy on me.  i know i'm such an idoit that i actually sabotage u. I'm s o r r y.