It was me who did my own-self declaration.

I think, i've told the whole world that i'll retain. Well, yes, now it's definitle the whole world.

The truth is, that voice i've heard didn't told me that i'll retain.

I call it and  assume that, it's God's voice.

Back then i was crying for help for my n'level, as i wanted to be truthful to myself and be fair to the others, i made a foolish prayer to God(few months ago.). Then when i came to my realisation, i made a serious and consious prayer. 

Few days ago, God spoke to me.

"Zining, i DID NOT say that you'll retain nor fail for your n'level, but i told you that your knowledge for most of the subjects isn't enough and which wouldn't make you ready for any of the examinations. Even if you were, it wouldn't bring forth any fruits; knowledge isn't there at all."

Then i was disappointed.

And then i was shaken and got reminded of 1 particular thing which i've forgotten it long enough to be remembered and it was,

"In order to move up to a higher level, you have to first accomplish the task; God's calling. Once you miss it, you missed it. Then be patient to be sensitive enough to hear for another and then find opportunity yourself to do it."

If you aren't sensitive enough, well~ You'll never hear it.