S'il vous plaît ne faites pas mal compris.

Je ne vous demande pas de m'aimer,
mais veux juste vous faire part que je suis follement amoureux de vous.
I'm not courageous enough to let you know.
I do not want any of my friends to do me great favor.
I've counted it,
calculated it
by finding a picture was taken
on that very day itself.
It's almost an exact 10months
ever since we first met.
I told myselfthat
i shouldn't
have
look at you10months ago,
as it made you flew up the sky so high.
So high
that you start looking in my direction
for 10months.

It has been 10months,
i was a girl
whom never felt
a single tingling lingering feeling
towards him.
It was in this 10months
which made me
attracted to you.
I never believe in
Love at the first sight
nor did i wish to
fall in love at the first sight.
If i didn't notice that little glances
you made,
i would have been happy
with my single wholesome life.
Because it has been long slow 10months
ever since we noticed each other's glances,
i can see that you become so open towards it,
which is nothing wrong with it.
My Love towards you is affecting me.
If i were to have the courage,
i promise myself wholeheartedly that,
i'll definitely let you know it
as this is the one and only way
to ease this pain that i have
for loving you.

I remember that i've made a vow to God 2 years ago saying, "...i will never ever get into any relationship ever again until i finishes my O'level..." So, i actually have abt 1-2years before i consider in getting into a relationship again.


I shared with daddy ytd that i was madly in Love with this unknown guy. I love him with a heart full of fear and not knowing what to do. I was actually being scolded by daddy. He told me this:

"You're crazy! Why are you so fearful in loving someone?!! There is NOTHING WRONG in loving someone!"

-"I am afraid that those little glances made me have the wrong idea of him. I have enough of all those hurts, cheatings and feeling being toyed around with in life. It just Hurts so much you know?"

"Sigh~"

&i promise myself that i'll never post about this unknown guy in my blog ever again.

i'm 30% done with my own personal diary. :D

Smiles,
Lilya L.Z.N

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