Imy

There’s someone i’m missing badly recently…

imy badly.

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Model:Raquel Zimmermann

Suddenly, i miss alot of things. i miss the confidence i use to have before. As i totally feel that i look suck. I feel that i’m ugly.

Out of a sudden, i remember that very day i told my mom this.

“Mom, can you help me to fulfill my Greatest Dream by signing the contract with XXXcompany? i’ve checked, they’re safe and their pol………………….”

“No. You sure u’ve met their criteria? Look at yourself. You don’t look pretty.”

it affected me for a while, then it affect me again;now. i think i really struggle with low-self esteem in life right now. I’ve overcomed it, but it u-turned back and hit me hard from the inside-out.

Bad memories came crashing down on me attacking me.

i use to say, “Thank you.” and give a cheery smile whenever people tells me, “You look pretty.” Now, not anymore. The word “Pretty” seems to be something poison to me which i wish and hope i can avoid people from using that on me.

i suck. I totally lost that little courage, boldness and confidence i use to have. Something got to be done. i just got to walk out of it.