i want to defeat it all.

I can do this. I can hold on to it. I can defeat my mountain which is blocking me. I’ll breakthrough all it.

“After every storm, you’ll see the rainbow.”

It’s been so long ever since “great” problems and troubles were threw upon me. It’s not easy to handle it at all.

Objections after abjections, the forceful act, the scary personality...

The feeling, the hurt, the pain…

Troubles, fears, frustration…

This is the time when i want to run away from it all and lie down to have a good rest, but i can’t. I know, if i were to run away from it, after walking a big round, i’ll still end up facing what i have to face.

I have to face it. I have to deal with it. It’s life.

God, i need You.

So, let me believe that, it not only makes me hate it, but i’ll be thankful for going through it all as i really want to believe that it will nurture me and come to good use later in life. Be it, to nurture my personality, my character, my attitude… to overcome my weaknesses, my problems and troubles so that i know how to deal it again later in life if i were to face it again. I want it to end it with me saying, “i’ve overcome it.” I want to smile brightly, and i mean really brightly. i want to see the light.