2010 huh? Everything just starts right after it hits 12 and began a whole new year. I didn’t quite enjoy the new year. Not at all… Right even before of 2010 starts, i’ve already fell sick.
2010 huh? My mom was admitted to hospital right after the first day of it.
2010 huh? I don’t know. Before i start a new year, a new life, i was already planning my new year resolution, but because i fell sick then my mom admitted to hospital, i some how call off my new year resolution planning… It wasn’t something nice for me. Up till now, my new year resolution is still incomplete.
i feel so much like breaking down and cry, but that little voice in me just kept on repeating like someone’s whispering in my ear, “it will get better, Zining, it’ll surely get better… As days goes by, i assure you that it will definitely gets better and better…” When this voice comes, i feel even more like crying… thinking to myself “I’ve not been Praying much, not been talking to You, i don’t think i’ve increased my walk with You, God, and yet i still can hear You so clearly… How is it so?”
The fact is, i just feel bitter… very bitter in my heart. That bitterness squeeze my heart so tight that i want to scream out loud. It makes me want to close my eyes and lie on my bedroom floor not thinking about anything… i feel hurt. i feel tired…
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