Lo and behold, i'm adapting to 'Change'.

There’s so many changes going on in my life right now. i have to adapt to the change of whether, thoughts and ideas for my Art.
i thought i was going CRAZYYY~
but i’m not. Perhaps falling sick and ill is one of the response my physical body can give to all this changes.

You never know how i feel. When i was trying real hard to squeeze my every single brain cell out just to make the best out of my Artwork (-like i said, i don’t work on something when i don’t have an exact goal and exact theme’s topic subject to focus on.), some people in my class said that i’m lazy as i didn’t do my Artwork. Excuse me, how can i be lazy when i’m working on more than 50% of my brain cells and you're not?! Shut up please if you don’t know what i’m going through right now. Can’t i aim for the best? Can’t i give impressive works just because i’m the slowest? Yes, i’m always the slowest in completion to my Artwork but i’m never the lousiest. Just shut up will you if you don’t know a single thing! –Yes, i was depress.

i have been wasting more than 6months of my time telling myself that i hate school since last year. This totally unholy thought indeed influenced myself in not studying. Maybe this explains why i got the worst result for my CA in my whole life. straight F9. Can you imagine that?! and now, i come to realise that it’s my “i hate school” mindset that’s playing the trick, accepting the new change and tilting my mindset in the other direction is definitely NOT EASY! –Yes again, i was depress.

When ideas and many different variety idea for my Artwork came, i losses the idea easily due to STM. Wait a minute. i’m never a STM in remembering every single bit of thing in my life. Just that my STM is active to some certain area, like ideas and memorising words.  Yeah, and merging the new ideas that i’ve got together with my old ideas are indeed, NOT EASY! –YES, I WAS REALLY DEPRESS!

Hey, i’m a human okay not 神仙! Even 神仙 also got feelings 的 okay?!
Was finding help in early February, now, it’s May and coming to June, hopefully it’s not too late for me.  
Still got to have my cheery smile and monster crazy laughter back. Got to stay at the tip top of my spirit or my clumsiness will catch up with me again.

Love,